Why am I so lame? :]

HAHA

I dont know why I was so nervous.

I am not nervous about dating, but nervous about feeling something for anyone but him.

Its such a scary thing, I havent felt anything for anyone since ive met him, since hes captured my smile. Taken over my happiness

He had me at 'Hello'

I know that this seems crazy and unrealistic, Everyone tells me that I need to be dating and figuring out that type of person I want to marry and crap.

I already know. Its him.

He is the only one I can feel anything for and i dont know why. I wish i could stop it because the fact that hes going to be gone for another 660 days kills me inside. Its like a broken heart. but worse because you know he likes you too, but the distance and circumstances kill it. Its like being stabbed multiple times in the chest by your closest friend or family member. It hurts SO bad. but you know that they still love you, as well as you them.

Ive never missed him this bad.

Its because I know we have a chance

a chance to be together

a chance to fall in love.

<3